Saturday, October 29, 2005
Dear 'M',
haven't had the time to blog for the past month. Really busy with attachment and stuffs. Many things happened for on the month of October, both good and bad. I've lived through joyous moments and also some really sad encounters. Feeling rather strange these few days, especially after the gathering at marche yesterday. I have this awkward feeling that something bad is going to bestow on me. Just like every time as I get close to the end of the chapter in my life. Primary school was like that, secondary school was like that. I fear the worst but not fully pessimistic about it. I feel like I'm going to lose what I have laid in front of me. It will be a shattering blow is it really happens to me again. Even though I may appear strong and tough headed, I'm really emotionally weak in the inside of me. There's no one on this face of the earth that has fully understand me as a person. Haiz...guess I can only make myself work more and harder to suppress this thought. Really gone through a bad month, even sprained my right ankle. Even when I'm down and depressed, I'll be able to pick myself up after a fall. Wish me luck 'M', the future is really in my hands now. I'm happy to see my friends smile. All the best to them. :) I'm someone who likes to see people happy while I myself can afford to cry inside.
Another child blessed by LOVE, 7:31:00 pm.
